The last 48 hours have been spent in a crazy frenzy of life decisions and second-guessing. I have been contemplating returning to the traditional workforce. This would mean day care for my youngest child and after school care for my oldest. The sticker shock alone has kept me in a tizzy! It really is ridiculous the rates that are charged. After much hand-wringing and back forth conversations in my swirling head, I decided that I am unwilling to go back to work outside of the home. I just can't justify working 40 hours a week only to bring home a few hundred dollars at the end of the month after paying for child care, extra gas expenses, and proper working attire.

So....once again I make the commitment to make it at least 10 more months until both kids are in school. Sounds like an easy decision right? It's anything but. It requires me to entrust my fate and failing car to God to come through in a great way.

I shouldn't fret. He always is faithful and works things out. Still, why does each new trial bring back the temporary panic of " what am I going to DO?" After 15 years of following Him you'd think I would be a pro at it. And yet here I am again.....hoping against hope that things will work out. When haven't they?

Maybe I'm a little slow on the uptake.....it wouldn't be the first time! :-)

authored by J1

this is me building with legos. my dogs name is tinkerbell. she is a good dog.
this is me puting a rail road piece into place.

civil engineering

My oldest son engrossed in his civil engineering project. Bob the Builder-watch out! Here's your new competition!

October

Well, it's October, and Halloween will soon be upon us. Thus begins the search for an affordable costume that will last one whole evening as my boys careen around the neighborhood in a sugar-induced frenzy. Last year they both decided that they wanted to be Batman. I tried to convince them that they would look so cute if one was Batman and the other was Robin, but its hard to convince even a 3 or 5 year old that green-tights-wearing-Robin is as cool as Batman. So, they both had to be Batman. It worked out well except for the fact that the costumes were pitch black from head to toe, and I kept looking around for them as we paraded about. They blended too easily into the dark night.



(Batman after the 100th Snickers bar!) This picture always cracks me up! Looks like Batman might be headed for the Gotham Asylum!

We are on a tight budget this year. We might just have to have two Batmans again. Or, I could cover them from head to toe with Aluminum foil and they could go as baked potatoes! I am horrible at actually sewing. Glue, tape, and household appliances might be my only recourse if I have to create costumes for them. Poor children--so unlucky to have a bad seamstress for their mother.

hmmmmm........