Sunday, December 16, 2012

Where did I go?

I pretty much gave up blogging for a lengthy amount of time. I had lost my taste for it. Saw no reason  to continue.

 I drowned my sorrows in World of Warcraft, choosing to waste hours of time on a video game rather than waste hours of time writing and commenting online. They always say that you have to replace one habit with another. I found battling monsters and orcs, except for when I was playing a Horde character, very relaxing and not nearly as mentally exhausting as trying to justify all of my opinions and ideas to people on the Internet.

Blogging had become too emotionally taxing for me because I really only wanted to say things that were true and honest, at least from my own perspective. As in real life, I don't do well trying to "fake it." I can be socially adept at knowing when to say what and how to read a situation, or people, and saying, or not saying things, at the right time.  However, even though I can do that, I find it tiring. It's an effort to go against my usual directness...which is why I am not a social butterfly and choose to have few close relationships. People have to be able to take my directness and I have to be able to feel as if I don't need to constantly censor my thoughts for the sake of others, or to guard my own sense that I haven't offended people whom I have no desire to upset.

I tend to withdraw when I feel too conflicted about what I am personally thinking and how I imagine others might react to what I am thinking.  Considering that blogging is an entirely self-imposed obligation, it made no practical sense to feel so emotionally involved with the reactions that I might provoke in my posts. Why fret about it when there is no need to?

I'm not sure if I will begin blogging again with any regularity. I'm kind of tiring of WoW, having explored most of the classes, races, and factions of the game, and having a lot of fun along the way.

I might be ready to re-enter the blogosphere, though it's probably not as fun as playing my rogue.

11 comments:

James Pate said...

I've thought of taking a long break from blogging, for some of the reasons you mention. The thing is, I have scheduled posts going all the way to April, so people probably wouldn't know I'm taking a break!

elbryanlibre said...

I figure if you blog about whatever you want, whatever your interests are, you'll make yourself happy. You may not get many visitors or comments but then there's also no perceived expectations, which can be liberating.
Was WoW your first game of that type or are you a pc gamer? I've wanted to introduce my wife to it but I'm afraid she'll get addicted. :-)

James McGrath said...

Welcome back!

Assistant Village Idiot said...

My eldest plays a good deal of WOW.

terri said...

James, if it weren't for responding to people's comments you could disappear for a few months without even losing blog readership.

terri said...

WoW was my first game of that type. I always played video games off and on throughout my life, but I wouldn't call myself a gamer. Every once in a while I latch onto a particular game and play it until I burn out on it. When we got the Wii for our kids several years ago I was obsessed with playing MarioKart online with other players....so much fun! Then I was totally in love with Super Paper Mario......but I was never a hard core gamer like my younger brother.

If your wife likes video games in general, she'd probably enjoy WoW. I think everyone gets addicted to it at first.

terri said...

Thanks!

terri said...

And he hasn't forced a Tolkien/Lewis lover such as yourself to play?

lelia said...

You ought to look into GuildWars 2.

evangelically incorrect said...

We missed you!

VanceH- said...

Hi Terri,
Welcome back. Looking forward to hearing what you've been thinking about.

-- Vance